And, here I am being selfish again. My therapist told me to not be so self-focused, that the focus should be on Silas. And it is, but how can I not also focus on me? He was my son, that I lost, and my world is forever changed because of it. There is a creative prompt on stilllife365 that talks about how self-focused we are when grieving and her prompt was to describe grief through art without using the words “I” or “me.” I have been brainstorming how to do this because I think it is a good exercise, but today is about me. ME, ME, ME!
I feel like I have lost almost everything important to me and I can’t even cry about it because I lost my tears too.