Friday, April 22, 2011
I don't want to hear "it will getter better"
I am not ready to even contemplate that right now. I don't want to get further away from the time I had Silas. Right now, I wish I could turn back time and freeze it in the moment I held my precious son in my arms. He never took a breath, but he was perfect. I can still feel the weight of him in my arms, picture his beautiful face. If I only could go back to that, spend more time caressing his sweet cheeks and kiss his forehead. I don't want to move forward and further away from that moment. I am afraid the further away I get the the foggier that memory will become. If I don't remember who will?