tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post7047539345943593327..comments2023-05-03T02:54:34.190-07:00Comments on My Search for Hope: ContradictionsShaina Gadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111305243630637641noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post-75214085471736234342011-06-07T07:56:49.786-07:002011-06-07T07:56:49.786-07:00Shaina, it seems obvious to me why you would have ...Shaina, it seems obvious to me why you would have those "contradicting" feelings when seeing the babies. The first "okay" feeling you had was when you saw ONE baby, from the gym across the street, where you could safely process from a distance the positive, hopeful side of seeing a little one. It was a "baby step", so to speak, which is how changes happen in grief. But then so quickly afterwards you were bombarded with newborns wherever you went--some practically chasing you--and that was too much too fast to be able to retain the new budding sensation you'd just had. Don't minimize what you experienced then--that you were able to see a baby with a new sense of appreciation is very real, and will come again (once you recover from the rest of the bizarre stalking baby weekend, that is :)Ana Rosehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14098115786234652424noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post-55259540455110244902011-06-06T18:53:15.636-07:002011-06-06T18:53:15.636-07:00Anonymous~ I am glad you have found my blog too. ...Anonymous~ I am glad you have found my blog too. You are so early in your grief. Please, please feel free to email me if you want to talk, rant, cry, ask questions, anything.<br /><br />I am so sorry you lost your firstborn.<br /><br />ShainaShaina Gadowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12111305243630637641noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post-14644140555194359392011-06-06T17:56:39.071-07:002011-06-06T17:56:39.071-07:00Shaina I just lost my full term son May 25th. He w...Shaina I just lost my full term son May 25th. He was my first baby. I cannot share or explain or scream or do so many things I feel like doing because I don't want to make people around me uncomfortable. Even when they say all the right things about being there if I need, or it being ok to cry etc etc. I found your blog today and thank you. Your story is so damn close to mine. It helps to have found your place here. Thank you for being brave enough to share and to continue to share. I know in theory things will get better/easier but it doesn't help on days like today. Finding your story does help on days like today. Thank you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post-85533529988664147872011-06-06T15:55:36.283-07:002011-06-06T15:55:36.283-07:00I feel like my life is one being contradiction als...I feel like my life is one being contradiction also. It sucks to know we are on the wrong side of statistics-why us? Blogging and meeting other blm's has definitely helped to know I am not alone.Beckyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11917822168137274298noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post-39426268642815511912011-06-05T21:26:53.898-07:002011-06-05T21:26:53.898-07:00Shaina, I feel just how you do. I had a similar ti...Shaina, I feel just how you do. I had a similar time at the grocery store yesterday--newborns everywhere. Ugh! Am sending prayers and happy vibes your way.katie illingworthhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03586049654494206137noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post-84440663673324248462011-06-05T18:51:47.314-07:002011-06-05T18:51:47.314-07:00I totally get what you mean about your body. I re...I totally get what you mean about your body. I remember wanting a sign that said, this body should have a baby. I am proud of my body, too, but when you don't have your baby to cart around, you don't have that badge to show you have earned the scars.<br /><br />My husband felt the same way about the computer at one point. He had trouble understanding how bad I needed it.<br /><br />Take care.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16694679593819914694noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post-32982709821363079302011-06-05T17:19:52.605-07:002011-06-05T17:19:52.605-07:00Oh, I know just what you mean about your computer ...Oh, I know just what you mean about your computer being a lifeline- mine is too. I get anxious when I log-in and have no new blog posts to read bc it means it's just me who is looking for them (at least, it seems that way).<br /><br />Any you're right, far more babies live than those who die. This should be comforting....Lj82https://www.blogger.com/profile/01067562341189588336noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1158790863232483312.post-4091181089291983272011-06-05T16:24:49.466-07:002011-06-05T16:24:49.466-07:00All I want to say, is if you read the very early p...All I want to say, is if you read the very early posts on my blog (I started blogging at about three months out) you will read SO many of the same thoughts. In fact, these could be my exact thoughts.<br />Just another way of saying, you are not alone.<br />xoHope's Mamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04984543289642681339noreply@blogger.com